As I look back over the last year, I cannot help but notice all of the things that have changed. This year started with my ex-abuser making his last attempt to try to stalk me before he finally gave up. And it ended with me leaving my neuroscience graduate program to pursue a career in domestic violence advocacy.
In between these milestones, I started this blog as an outlet to tell my story and encourage other survivors to do the same, and I found more comfort and support than I ever could have imagined. I no longer feel the need to stay silent. I am not afraid to tell my story to anyone for fear that they won’t believe me. Because now I know that even if one person doesn’t believe me, there are plenty of other people out there who do. And as a wise friend once told me, more people ended up believing me than I had thought.
With this support, I found the courage to go out of my comfort zone and attended NCADV’s Take A Stand in honor of the 30th anniversary of domestic violence awareness month. At this event, I met other survivors and advocates, learned about bills affecting survivors, and lobbied on Capitol Hill with staff members of senators. As a neuroscience graduate student who dissects brains and feeds cells all the time, this took the phrase “stepping out of your comfort zone” to a whole new level. But this experience was truly life changing. I met some of the most inspiring and amazing people I have ever met, and I found something that was a thousand times more meaningful than playing with cells in a dish – using my voice to help empower change.
So, perhaps the biggest change of all this year – I decided to quit my neuroscience PhD program and leave with a master’s degree. During my master’s defense, I concluded the presentation by telling my committee members, all of who are very established scientists on campus, that I am leaving neuroscience to help end domestic violence. Needless to say, this is not the typical conclusion for a master’s defense in neuroscience. But I cannot tell you how empowering it felt to stand up there in front of all of these important scientists and declare that this is what I want to devote my life to.
I never thought that any of this would happen. But this seems to be the direction that life is taking me. Last week was my final week on that campus, which holds so many painful memories for me. I will never again have to walk past my abuser’s lab in our building. I will never have to look behind my shoulder or peer around corners to see if he is there. I will never have to feel my heart racing as I go to my car at the end of the day, scared that he may have purposely parked next to me yet again. As long as I was trapped in that building with him just 3 floors below me, I could never truly be free. I guess this is what I have done in 2017 – I reclaimed my freedom and found my voice. And I will never again be silent.
In 2017, I said goodbye to neuroscience and academia, and goodbye to staying silent and being afraid to speak the truth. I found what I truly love and I am not looking back. 2018 – Bring it on.
Inspiring! all the best 🙂
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You have an inspiring story. This is a compelling story of bravery and you, my dear, are courageous following your heart to live your dream of helping others who experienced similar situations. We all need a little inspiration and this blog is a wonderful source of light.
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Thank you so much for your kind words. They mean more than you know. Much love ❤
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Thank you! 💓
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Glad that you are doing so much better! 😊 Keep it up 👍
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Wow! Truly happy for you. ❤️
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Thank you! ❤
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so beautiful !! keep pushing and moving forward. Such a great inspiring post !
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Thank you for your support ❤
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You should be proud! You have accomplished so much!
God bless your future endeavours!
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Thank you for your kind words ❤
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You are welcome! 🙂
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Trully inspirational, your story will be the fuel for others success. Keep speaking your volumes.
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Thank you! And I definitely will! Happy New Year ❤
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You are a strong person who will reach many with your heart and your experience. Happy New Year and may Blessings be one step ahead of each step you take.
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Thank you so much ❤ Happy New Year to you as well 🙂
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You accomplished so much in 2017 thanks to your bravery and strength.I m sure 2018 will be the consolidation of all this plus I wish it will bring you more and more success ,love,joy ……
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Thank you for your kind words and support ❤ They mean so much to me. Happy New year 🙂
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And to you dear.im sure it will be bright and full of gods things.you passed the worst of your journey ❤️
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Way to go! As I read your story, it makes my blood boil on how people think that it is okay to do these kinds of things. But at the end of the day, hurt people hurt people and your abuser, at one point of his/her life probably was hurt as well. I am proud of you for stepping out of your PhD program to choose yourself as well as standing up for a brave cause. I look forward to seeing all that you do and all the lives you will continue to impact just by sharing your story.
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Thank you for your support. Have a happy New Year! ❤
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You as well!
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You are so brave. Keep up your most important, vital work. You notice the help has only been around for 30 years. When I was young, this behavior was chuckled at and called “he said/she said”. “Boys will be boys!!!” Makes me so sad.
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Thank you! Yes, it’s disgusting that people would (and still do) say that and make those excuses. We’ve made progress but there is still a long way to go.
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I wish you all the best! You will help many many women you are strong, brave and your resilience is admirable! 🙏🏽
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